The grass is much greener on the other side.

Growing up, my self-esteem level was never impressive. I would spent countless days and nights thinking that I was never going to be good-looking or smart enough, that everything about me was never significant, that if I were to suddenly disappear, I would do the world a favour by giving it a greater carrying capacity for perfection to take over. At times, I couldn't bring myself to look in the mirror, and even avoided looking people in the eye for fear of rejection. I needed to be saved, but there was never any chance, because I didn't let anyone close enough to try. But after a long time feeling like nothing else but dirt, I finally found what I have been endlessly looking for, in a line that says,

"We have flaws so we can have talents"

Although I have always known that I can never be proud of my physical attributes and mental acuity (and for that matter driving skills), I finally came to know that, at the very least, I can be proud of my talents, because no one else in the world can do whatever I do the way I do it. :)

And that was when the grass was no longer greener on the other side. In fact, it was dead brown.


p/s: New skills to develop, and hopefully talents to discover: Photography.
Thank you Ayah for being supportive. You deserve a picture posted.